Headrush!

First, the boring bit:

On day three (and a half) of my program, my blood is being cleansed of the carbon monoxide (CO) and other impurities improving its ability to carry oxygen, this is making me feel lightheaded and dizzy every time I get up. I am fighting off very strong cravings and experiencing fever like symptoms as my body gets accustomed to no nicotine. Well, they said that the more you smoke, the harder it will be when you quit, and for someone who just quit a 2 pack a day routine since the last 2 years, I think I am in for a long ride. Hope it gets easier as time progresses.

Now,

I went to sleep drunk last night, I had a normal dreamless sleep until I found myself in one. I was with two other people-people whom I think I was familiar with, within the dream. I don't know who they were though. I am in a crowded part of some city purportedly somewhere in the US. Suddenly, I look to the sky and see the ominous shape of a mushroom cloud in the distance, it is brief and lights up the night like the way lightning usually does.

I immediately think to myself; "They did it, there is nothing I can do now, a few more seconds" I feel angry, like I know who did it, angry at their stupidity, angry at the fact that I had no choice in this matter. I also felt like I had some premonition of this happening. But I never thought it would actually happen, nuclear war? The destruction of humanity? That was the stuff the people at r/conspiracy like to talk about.

I am going to die! You know... when you are young, you never really think about dying, right? It's a long way away, no need to worry about it now. I, however, am paranoid about it and think about it a lot and quite frankly I am terrified of it. I am getting scared and I go and hug these two people, because I suddenly feel like their company will give me some courage, and wait. I can't call my parents because it is too late, there isn't enough time.

And I close my eyes as I feel the shock wave getting closer. And strangely, I am suddenly curious, I want to know what it feels like to die. Maybe my subconscious mind knows and will accordingly make this dream play out. I feel the wave hit, and my mind suddenly feels light and I feel like I am stoned, very strongly stoned, and then... I open my eyes. Sunlight. Blue blanket. 2011. MBA. GPA. Right.